bring the beat back!

hey there fellas :B

2009-08-27T03:51:00.001-07:00

how's everything going?
udah lama abis ga ngepost apa apa.
sorry dude,i got a lot of things to do! ♥
mulai dari assignments yang ga berenti-berenti sampe exams yang tega2nya dikasih waktu puasa.
and now,Galaxee udh mulai jalan.
Sorry,we'll be in touch kok (?)

Anyway. I heard some bad news these days.
Such as.......

MALAYSIA MENGKLAIM TARI PENDET BALI

uwww rude huh?

anyway,I checked www.tourism.gov.my and i got this:

Malaysia's Textiles:

Batik
Referring to the process of dyeing fabric by making use of a resistant technique; covering areas of cloth with wax to prevent it absorbing colours. The colours in batik are much more resistant to wear than those of painted or printed fabrics because the cloth is completely immersed in dye.

Malaysia's Culture & Heritage: Games & Patimes:

Wayang Kulit
Wayang kulit is a traditional theatre form that brings together the playfulness of a puppet show, and the elusive quality and charming simplicity of a shadow play. The flat two-dimensional puppets are intricately carved, then painted by hand.It is either made of cow or buffalo hide. Each puppet, a stylised exaggeration of the human shape, is given a distinctive appearance and not unlike its string puppet cousins, has jointed "arms". Conducted by a singular master storyteller called Tok Dalang, wayang kulit usually dramatises ancient Indian epics.

See?
Bisa gitu ya mengklaim budaya orang terus ngaku2

ga malu apa

jangan ngasal deh.

pelajaran bahasa indonesia,HELP!

2009-07-30T03:00:00.000-07:00

was it hell?-_- well kadang gurunya juga baik sih... tapi kan ya suka kejam gitu ngasih tugas. sampe gue aja suka takut banget walaupun cuma melangkahkan kaki masuk ke kelasnya.
biasanya,kalo hari kamis kan ada pelajaran bindo,kaya tadi ini.
sebelom bindo istirahat,kalo misalnya udh bel masuk..

Budi : "Nissa!! Bu Ari!!! Lari!!"

Refleks,lari lah gue,deel,budi.

ngos2an sampe dikelas,Josa lari2 dari kelas

Josa : "AIR MINUM TUMPAAH"

dhania,gue,deel,budi panik.

Budi : "BERSIIN,BU ARI!!!!"

pake tisu ambil segepok,di lap ampe bersih.
lebe banget deh pokonya kalo mau pelajaran dia tuh

kalo misalnya bu ari udh masuk,biasanya perut bawah kiri gue (daerah ginjal) rada sakit gitu

Nissa : "ginjal gue..."

semua anak duduk rapih,si budi melakukan kontraksi

Budi : "huuu haaa huuu haaa" (ambil napas buang napas)
Nissa : (tertarik) "huuuu haaaa huuuu haaaa"
Koyan : "NGAPAIN LU"
Nissa&Budi : (ngelanjutin)

-_-

well,whatthehell,this's school,right?

that's what we call it,school.

2009-07-29T03:34:00.001-07:00

well,whatever. gue akhir2 ini lagi males banget sekolah,youknw,too much homeworks,too much NUMBERS in math,too much words in biology,whatever. i really dont wanna go to school these days. especially,when ive to see those faces,when ive to see people come and go,walkin around me without noticing me here. hello? what the hell? look at us! we're here! well,tau ga sih rasanya kalo misalnya lo ngerasa gak di apain ya,ga dianggep ada gituloh.tiba2 lagi jalan ditabrak aja gitu,ga minta maaf atau apa. HELLO PEOPLE,IM HERE,REALLY,WHAT THE HELL? now just because we're 9th grader and we're going to leave soon,now you dont even notice that we're here?

Peace and love,no heart feelings people.

everybody can dream

2009-07-20T05:11:00.000-07:00

kalo misalnya sekarang gue boleh melakukan apa aja yang gue mau buat ngebales perbuatan teroris,apa yang akan gue lakukan?

1. gue taro di tengah stadion Gelora Bung Karno, ditengah2 diiket. terus semua org yang udh beli tiket MU ngelemparin dia pake: Batu,Palu,Paku,Logam,Besi,Pipa,Lampu,Sepatu,Koskaki,Celana dalem.

2. dibawa kerumah sakit sampe sembuh

3. kalo udh sembuh,ditaro ditengah stadion lagi,disiksa dengan hal yang sama,tapi kali ini dilemparin pake: Piso,Rokok,silet,golok.

4. disembuhin lagi

5. udah sembuh dibawa ke stadion lagi,smua org bawa garpu,tusuk segala anggota tubuhnya,tp jangan sampe mati

6. sembuhin lagi

7. bakar idup2

PUAS GAK SIH LO!?

terrible terrorists

2009-07-18T06:18:00.000-07:00

ya allah,kenapa sih ngebomnya harus pas ada Manchester United,MANCHESTER UNITED WOY,mau tanding kesini? astaga kenapa sih teroris kaga mikir gitu,betapa merana terpuruknya manusia2 yang udh beli tiketnya MU,yang udah ngimpiin MU bakal ke Jakarta?
Oh iya gue lupa,namanya juga teroris ya gapernah mikirin orang.tapi serius aja gue udh sampe mimpiin Manchester United kesini,gue ngeliat Michael Carrick!!!!!!♥♥ terus tiba2 nggak jadi siapa yang ga pengen gantung diri?
well then,guess what? my feelings told me that manchester tiba2 bakal dateng lagi and say..

"Hey Indonesia! Let's Play!
Budi tidak takut lagi bermain bola. MAU?"

mau banget mas

michael carrick♥

2009-07-18T05:58:00.001-07:00

It’s amazing to think Michael Carrick had his detractors at the start of his United career, with some grumblings about his transfer fee - £14m rising to £18.6m with add-ons.

Even after his debut 2006/07 season, in which he carved out a formidable partnership with Paul Scholes as the Reds reclaimed the title, some people predicted he’d slip down the pecking order after the arrival of Owen Hargreaves. But not a bit of it. Carrick has become ever more important to United, maturing into one of English football's most sophisticated and classy passing midfielders.

The first of Carrick's two league titles with United to date was also the first major honour of his professional career, although he did win the FA Youth Cup with West Ham in 1999, scoring twice in the 9-0 final demolition of Coventry City.

West Ham loaned Carrick out to Swindon in 1999/2000 and then Birmingham in 2000/01 when he earned a nomination for the PFA Young Player of the Year, eventually won by Liverpool's Steven Gerrard.

Carrick spent much of the 2002/03 season sidelined with injury. West Ham were relegated at the end of it but rather than join Joe Cole, Fredi Kanoute and Jermain Defoe in an exodus, Carrick stayed for a season in the Championship. However, after losing the 2004 play-off final to Crystal Palace, Carrick decided he couldn't wait another year for a return to the Premier League and moved across London to join Tottenham in a transfer worth £2.75m.

He blossomed into an accomplished midfielder in two seasons at White Hart Lane. However, he only scored two goals in 64 games and it seemed this low strike-rate would continue at United, at least for the first few months.

Encouraged by Sir Alex Ferguson to push forward, Carrick eventually weighed in with six strikes from midfield in 2006/07. His first was a well-taken half-volley against Aston Villa at Old Trafford on 13 January 2007; his second, at home to Reading in the FA Cup, was shortlisted for the club's Goal of the Season award (won by Scholes away to Villa). His other goals included two in the 7-1 rout of Roma.

Carrick may have only scored three goals in 2007/08 but his all-round contribution to the cause could not be questioned as the Reds were crowned Champions of England and Europe. No wonder then that club and player agreed a new four-year deal in May 2008, to keep Carrick at United until June 2012.

photos from: google flickr
source: manutd

come back, hey manchester!

2009-07-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA GILA

Im going insane,Im desperate. First,karena Manchester United,MANCHESTER UNITED gajadi kesini,betapa nyeseknya gue!!! udah mau nonton,udah mau meet and greet sama mereka,taunya di BATALIN. GODDDDDDDD IM GOING TO DIE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE,MY LIFE DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING (lebay) -_- ya gimana dong ya.

Screw you Indonesia,bikin malu aja sih.

hello idols.

2009-07-13T05:19:00.001-07:00

Hey there,whats up folks?
So,tiba2 pengen review gitudeh selama hidup gue ngefans sm siapa aja,hmm let's see..

Age 6-8
Usher,I liked his song "Yeah"

Age 8-11
Daniel Radcliffe, as Harry Potter.

Age 11-12
Pete Wentz, Fall Out Boy

Age 11-now
Jared Leto,30 Seconds To Mars. I saw him at his video clip,A Beautiful Lie. I was like,"OH MY GOD,HE'S HANDSOME"

Oh My God,I put too much photos of Jared Leto,am I? Sorry then :B I love him too much.

photos from: google flickr

jareddddddddddddd♥

2009-07-13T02:02:00.000-07:00

Jared Leto (born December 26, 1971) is an American actor and musician. His first major acting performance was as Jordan Catalano in the television series My So-Called Life. This led to a film career, including a critically acclaimed portrayal of a drug addict in Requiem for a Dream. Additionally, Leto is the lead vocalist, rhythm guitarist and main songwriter of the rock band 30 Seconds to Mars.

Leto was born on December 26, 1971 in Bossier City, Louisiana. During his childhood, Leto and his family—his mother, Constance, and his older brother Shannon Leto—moved frequently, living in Louisiana, Wyoming, Colorado, Virginia, and even Haiti.

After dropping out briefly in the 10th grade, Jared decided to return and focus on his education at Flint Hill School in Oakton, Virginia. He graduated from Emerson Preparatory School in Washington, DC in 1989. When he finished school, Leto enrolled at Philadelphia's University of the Arts to pursue his interests in painting. However, he then transferred to New York City's School of Visual Arts after developing an interest in acting.

In 1992, Leto moved to Los Angeles to pursue a career in music. He only took a few small part- time acting gigs to pay the bills. Two years later, he landed a role in the TV show My So-Called Life in which he played Jordan Catalano, opposite Claire Danes. After the show ended in 1995, Leto acted in several films such as How to Make an American Quilt, Girl, Interrupted, Urban Legend, The Thin Red Line, Prefontaine and Fight Club, among others.

However, it was his portrayal of heroin addict Harry Goldfarb in Darren Aronofsky's Requiem for a Dream in the year 2000, that garnered him more critical praise. The same year he portrayed a misfortuned yuppie colleague of Christian Bale's Patrick Bateman, in Mary Harron's American Psycho. After that, he returned with David Fincher for Panic Room, then teamed up with Jake Gyllenhaal in Highway in 2002, then acted opposite Colin Farrell in Oliver Stone's Alexander, and later with Nicolas Cage in Lord of War.

Leto is a vegetarian and especially mentions this in interviews where he talked about his increase of weight for the film Chapter 27 (alongside Lindsay Lohan) in which he plays John Lennon's killer, Mark David Chapman. He gained more than 60 pounds for this role.

He is set to star in the film Mr Nobody playing the role of the eponymous Nemo Nobody. The film is set to be released in May of 2009.

Aside from his film career, Jared Leto is the lead vocalist, rhythm guitarist and sole songwriter of the band 30 Seconds to Mars along with his brother, Shannon Leto, on drums. They started the band in 1998 and have released two albums: their eponymous debut 30 Seconds to Mars and 2005's A Beautiful Lie. They began opening for other bands and started their first ever headlining tour, Forever Night Never Day, in March of 2006. In May 2007, they started touring Europe, as the opening act for Linkin Park. In August 2008, Virgin Records filed a $30 million lawsuit against Jared and 30 Seconds To Mars, claiming the band refused to deliver three albums as required by its contract. According to the lawsuit, the band "repudiated" a 1999 contract in July. In late April 2009 the lawsuit with EMI was annulled and 30 Seconds To Mars decided to re-sign with Virgin Records. They have also promised to have their third album This Is War out sometime in 2009.

Leto directed the videos for the songs "The Kill" and "From Yesterday" under the alias of Bartholomew Cubbins , and "A Beautiful Lie" under the alias of Angakok Panipaq.

For most shows, Leto uses either one of two custom-made Steve McSwain guitars, a white one called "Pythagoras" or a black one called "Artemis". The guitars—one a baritone and the other with a 25 1/2" neck—have the image of a gryphon which he drew for McSwain. Occasionally he plays a white Gibson SG 61' Reissue as seen in the video for "A Beautiful Lie". Jared also play a Gibson Maestro acoustic guitar for acoustic performances. Jared uses Mesa/Boogie amps, more specifically the Triple Rectifier model and matches them with Mesa/Boogie speaker cabinets as well.

source: Wikipedia

Love you to death Jared :B

hey there, 9 graders.

2009-07-13T01:21:00.000-07:00

my first day being a 9th grader. well,kind of awkward..

jadi tuh pokonya pertama2 kita penasaran2 dulu gitu bakal sekelas sm siapaaa,gue emang ga rela banget pisah sm temen2 kelas 8 gue.

setelah akhirnya dibolehin buat liat papan nama,first name that appeared at 9d was my name. obviously,that's my class.
sooo gue liat2 siapa yang sekelas sm gue,i found:

Dinda Nayaredhanty WP
Dewie Anggraini Putri
Delvina Ramadhania
Faulika Prasasti Maulida
Boedi Septian Dwi Putra
Bella Tri Hapsari
Layina Maula Haryanto
Danir Amrullah
Harutomo Seto
REYHAN AHMAD

GOOOOOOD IM SO LUCKYYYY :B jadi gue ga deg2kan lagi deh
pertama masuk kelas sih emang,i felt this..........awkwardness. mungkin karena blm dpt chemistry nya kali ya hm-_-

yahhh i hope sih,9d bisa ngasih kesan yang bagus buat my last year at Pembangunan Jaya JHS.

Cheers,
Nissa.

proud to be, Indonesian.

2009-07-12T01:56:00.000-07:00

Proud to be Indonesian, Proud to be the Trendsetter.
Proud to be a creator, not a stealer.
We have our own culture, we don't steal another country's culture.
We proud to be Indonesian, we proud to be the trendsetter.
we fight together as one, we walk together as one..
We are Indonesian.

photo from: google

im outtie :B

2009-07-12T01:17:00.001-07:00

see you,bloggers! :B

photo from: flickr.com

i adore...........these hot guys!

2009-07-12T00:26:00.000-07:00

Cole&Dylan Sprouse!
i dont know why but when i saw em in Suite Life On Deck,im accidentally in love with them.

Jared Leto!
obviously, he's way more than just hot.

Jensen Ackles!
he's more than HANDSOME,he has this um,mindkiller body and he's hot,obviously!!!!!

Zac Efron!
well um,he's a-good-guy type,he's handsome,he has a wonderful blue eyes. and come on,HE'S NOT GAY! just because he played high school musical,doesnt mean he's gay! but ok, i hate his girlfriend!! dump her,Zac. im begging you!-_-

photos from: justjared flickr love-jensen

new season!!!!!

2009-07-12T00:17:00.000-07:00

Season five of Supernatural, an American television series, will begin airing on September 10, 2009. This is the fourth season to air on the CW television network. Season five regular cast members include Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles and Misha Collins. It has been confirmed that actor Mark Pellegrino will play the role of Lucifer who was freed from hell at the end of Season 4.

source: Wikipedia.

YES YES YES DUA BULAN LAGI!!!!!!!

udah kelamaan nunggu lama2 karatan gua

Gone Too Soon, Michael..

2009-07-12T00:11:00.000-07:00

Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon

Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon

Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night

Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon

Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon

Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon

Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night

Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon

Michael Jackson, Gone Too Soon.

King of Pop.

2009-07-11T23:11:00.000-07:00

Michael Jackson suffered cardiac arrest at his home in Holmby Hills, Los Angeles, California on June 25, 2009. He was treated by paramedics at the scene, but was pronounced dead at the Ronald Reagan UCLA Medical Center two hours later.

His personal physician, Conrad Murray, says he found Jackson in bed, not breathing but with a faint pulse, and administered CPR to no avail. Initial reports indicated that Jackson died one hour after receiving an injection of pethidine (Demerol), a painkiller to which his friends say he was addicted. Murray has said he did not prescribe or furnish Jackson with Demerol

His death triggered an outpouring of grief around the world, creating surges of Internet traffic. He had been scheduled to perform 50 sold-out concerts O₂ arena, from July 13, 2009 to March 6, 2010, which he had implied during a press conference would be the last of his career. His memorial on July 7, 2009 at the Staples Center in Los Angeles, where he had rehearsed for the London concerts just two days before his death, was broadcast live around the world, attracting a global audience of up to one billion people

Jackson became ill at his rented home on 100 North Carolwood Drive in the Holmby Hills area of Los Angeles during the late morning or early afternoon of June 25 PDT. It was widely reported that he had received an injection of Demerol at 11:30 a.m., though his physician, cardiologist Conrad Murray, has said he neither prescribed nor furnished Jackson with Demerol.

Murray said through his lawyer, Ed Chernoff, that he fortuitously went to see Jackson on the second floor of Jackson's home, and found him in bed, not breathing. There was a weak pulse in his femoral artery, the doctor said, and Jackson's body was still warm. He began to administer CPR. Chernoff told CNN's Anderson Cooper that there was no landline in the bedroom, and although Murray had a cell phone, he did not know the address of the property. The lawyer said that Murray, unable to contact security by phone, ran downstairs and alerted the chef to call security. By the time security called 911 (emergency services), 30 minutes had passed.

The New York Post said the emergency services were contacted only after Jackson's father was told by a security guard that Jackson was ill. The Post reported that Jackson's 12-year-old son, Michael Joseph "Prince", was present during the resuscitation attempts.

Los Angeles Fire Department (LAFD) paramedics received a 911 call at 12:21 pm (19:21 UTC), and arrived three minutes and seventeen seconds later, at which point Jackson was not breathing. The recording of the 911 call was released by the LAFD on June 27. CPR was performed for 42 minutes by paramedics at the house. They moved Jackson to the Ronald Reagan UCLA Medical Center, arriving at 1:14 pm (20:14 UTC), and continued with CPR for an hour.^[8]^[10] He was pronounced dead at 2:26 pm (21:26 UTC).

Memorial

There was a private family service on July 7 at Forest Lawn - Hollywood Hills Cemetery in Los Angeles, followed by a public memorial at the Staples Center, where Jackson had rehearsed on June 23, two days before he died. The service was broadcast live around the world, believed to have been watched by up to one billion people. Jackson's solid-bronze casket, plated with 14-karat gold and lined with blue velvet, was placed in front of the stage. His brothers each wore a single, white, sparkling glove, while Stevie Wonder, Lionel Richie, Jermaine Jackson and others sang his songs. Berry Gordy and Smokey Robinson both spoke, and Queen Latifah read, "We had him," a poem written for Jackson by M aya Angelou at the request of Katherine Jackson. "Sing our songs among the stars and walk our dances across the face of the moon/In the instant that Michael is gone, we know nothing." The Reverend Al Sharpton received a standing ovation for a rousing eulogy, and Jackson's 11-year-old daughter, Paris, broke down as she told the crowd, "Ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine ..."^[109] Marlon Jackson said, "Maybe now, Michael, they will leave you alone"

Goodbye, Michael Jackson :')
rest in peace!

source: Wikipedia

"i think im adorable"

2009-07-11T22:59:00.001-07:00

Jensen Ross Ackles,
Texas, March 1, 1978
(L)(L)

hey,it's match!

2009-07-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

1.. Pertama-tama tulis angka 1 sampai sebelas dikertas anda secara vertikal (atas ke bawah)
2.. Tulis angka yang paling kamu senang (antara 1-11) disebelah angka No.1 dan 2
3.. Tulis 2 nama orang (lawan jenis) yang kamukenal, masing-masing di No.3 dan No.7
4.. Tulis 3 nama orang yang kamu kenal di No.4, 5,dan 6. Disini kamu boleh menulis nama orang dikeluarga, teman, kenalan. Siapapun OK. Cumaharus yang kamu kenal
5.. Di no.8, 9, 10 dan 11 kamu tulis nama judullagu yang berbeda-beda
6.. Terakhir, tulis kamu punya permohonan.(Kamu minta permohonan)

NAH............ dibawah ini ada jawaban dari psikotest-nya mudah-mudahancocok jawabannya

1.. Anda harus memberitahu ke orang yang andatulis di No. 7 tentang psi kotest ini.
2.. Orang yang anda tulis di No.3 adalah orangyang kamu cintai.
3.. Orang yang anda tulis di No.7 adalah orangyang kamu suka, tetapi bertepuk sebelah tangan.
4.. Orang yang anda tulis di No.4 adalah orangyang anda rasa paling penting bagi anda.
5.. Orang yang anda tulis di No.5 adalah orangyang paling mengerti tentang anda.
6.. Orang yang anda tulis di No. 6 adalah orangyang membawa keberuntungan pada anda.
7.. Lagu yang anda tulis di no. 8 adalah lagu yangditujukan untuk orang No.3
8.. Lagu yang anda tulis di no.9 adalah lagu yangditujukan untuk orangNo.7
9.. Lagu yang anda tulis di no.10 adalah lagu yangmelukiskan apa yang ada di hati anda.
10.. Terakhir, lagu yang anda tulis di No.11 adalah lagu yang melukiskan hidup anda.

okaaay, i copied that from my sister's blog, Cia :B then i decided to try that,and here are the results.

1. 10
2. 3
3. qodry
4. dindadeel
5. cinintya
6. bella
7. (em sorry,kinda private :B)
8. please,dont leave me (pink) --> "I always say how i dont need you,but its always gonna comeright back to this,please dont leave me"
9. why can't i? (liz phair) --> "why cant i breathe whenever i think about you?" wow
10. like a star (corinne bailey rae) --> "just like a star cross my sky,just like an angel of the pain" :D
11. naive (the kooks) --> "im not saying its your fault,although you could have done more,you're so naive" -_-

17 Again

2009-06-20T19:41:00.000-07:00

Okay, just to let you know aja kok,
FILM 17 AGAIN BAGUS BANGET SUMPAH PARAH, banyak moral nya juga, ga nyesel banget gue maksa emak bapak gue buat nonton ini. walaupun dengan perjuangan yang sangat berat.
cuma sumpah ya Zac Efron ganteng banget disini, gue sampe speechless. I'm in love banget deh sm Zac Efron. dulu gue kan ngejek2 dia gay gitu hehe tapi skrg gue suka bgt sm dia, matanya ituloh hmmmmmmmmmm yummy. yaudah sih, confession,

I love Zachary David Alexander Efron from now on.

hsm?

2009-06-09T04:13:00.000-07:00

So, waktu itu gue kerumah sodara gue kan ya.
Terus ada sodara gue, kelas 2sd gitu, dia tergila2 sama yang namanya..

High School Musical

Jadi bajunya itu gambar Gabriella Montez itu kan ya -_-

"WOW Gabriella"

"Iya aku suka Gabriella mbak Nis"

"oh ya? wowww, kalo cowonya kamu suka siapa?"

"aku suka Ryan"

"hah Ryan kan homo!"

"iya apa?"

"enggasih tapi gayanya homo"

"masa sih?"

"iya mendingan Troy"

"iya ya"

Setelah saat itu gue penasaran, apasih yang diliat dari HSM?
Gue tontonin terus tuh,
eh akhirnya gue ikutan juga deh -_-

High School Musical, um yea goodlah, not bad.
Well, I watched it 6 times already, ihihi.

I like High School Musical 3 though.

Kinda...........................creative.

um, confession.

I like Zac Efron, sometimes.
But really, I HATE him when he "do the dance."
I like his face, though.
He really shouldn't play High School Musical in the first place.

the day after tomorrow

2009-06-06T01:54:00.000-07:00

hey there delilah what's it like in New York city? (8)
gatau nih ah lagi bete abisan sabtu gini dipaksa belajar.

well, as you know, at monday, which is come after sunday (?)
I'll have a final exams, yes examS, with S behind the exam word.

udah belajar sih, cuma lo tau lah pasti kan ada yang gimana gitu ga sih.
kaya deg2kan kambing gitu -_- sebel deh ah
udah mana kenaikan kelas lagi..

oh yes, Im gonna miss my class.
8c, which is the best class I've ever had.

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmh! dammit, gue gasuka banget deh ya erh

heyya anyway, fellas.

wish me luck ya :D

my very own magical tales

2009-06-03T04:27:00.000-07:00

Imagine you have a magic lamp with a genie in it.
The genie always gives anything you want.

When I was a little kid, my mom gave me a lamp for my birthday. I was so happy and excited, but then I realized that I didn't know how to use it correctly, so I kept it inside my box.

Until one day, I realized something was shaking inside my box. I took out all of the stuff inside it, and I found my old lamp.

I put it on my desk beside my bed.

It was 12 o'clock already, so I was sleeping when the lamp shook again. I woke up and found the lamp dropped under my bed.

I took it and I held it.

Suddenly, there was an old-fat-ugly genie came out from the lamp, I shocked and throw the lamp away from me.

"Don't be scared, Lady. I'm here to help you, I give you three wishes. What do you want?"

"Hey, am I dreaming?"

"Unfortunately, you're not"

"How could you......how you....nevermind. You could really grant my wishes?"

"Yes, anything"

"Anything?"

"ANYTHING!"

"Oh, great. First, I want you to rebuild my house. Make it unbelievable, make it special. Make my house special"

The genie closed his eyes and voila! My house turned into the most beautiful house that I've ever seen in my entire life.

"What's next, Nis?"

"Em, could you make me super-rich? Like, I'll never out of the money?"

"Sure"

The genie closed his eyes again, and voila! My wallet was full of credit cards and full of money. Wow.

"Next.."

"My last wish is..........could you turn yourself into Jensen Ackles? ERR that would be nice, genie"

"Sure"

The genie turned into a super-hot Jensen Ackles. And we lived happily ever after.

coba ini beneran.

2009-06-02T04:21:00.000-07:00

This is hard...
When all decisions, is right on your hand.
When you're the only one who can..
You're the only one who can, who have to decide,
what'll you keep, or what'll you lose.

To be honest, I don't want to lose anything, I just want to keep this.
For a reaaaaaaaaally long time.
But I know, I just can't, that's a kinda selfish.

For now, I really don't want you to go, I really don't.
But why you keep pushing me, to throw you away?
You know I can't.

For God's sake,
I love you.

The J Guys

2009-06-02T03:26:00.000-07:00

hey now, whatcha doin fellas?

gatau ya gue lagi bete2 gitu sama deel, terus tiba2 mikir kalo orang depannya J (artis Hollywood, for example) they're Hotttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!

Prove it!

Jensen Ross Ackles, always be my favorite :B

Jared Tristan Padalecki

My one and only Jared Joseph Leto

Josh Duhamel

Jackson Rathbone

Jake Gyllenhal

Johnny Depp

Jason Mraz

and many more deh ah capek -_-

See what I mean?
They're gorgeous!

AfterElton's 100 Hottest Guys 2009!

2009-05-31T02:37:00.000-07:00

gue lagi ngesearch Jensen Ackles gitu kan, terus gue buka www.jensenacklesfans.com, tiba2 ada artikel..

Jensen Ackles beat Robert Pattinson in After Elton's 100 hottest guys 2009!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

karena kaget yaudah gue buka, jadi ini nih listnya:

1 Neil Patrick Harris

2 John Barrowman

3 Luke MacFarlane

4 Jake Gyllenhaal

5 Jensen Ackles ini bener nih, harusnya sih nomer 1

6 Chris Evans

7 Cheyenne Jackson

8 Hugh Jackman

9 Gale Harold

10 James Franco

11 Zac Efron najis

12 Jared Padalecki

13 Anderson Cooper

14 Gareth David-Lloyd

15 Matthew Mitcham

16 Adam Lambert WHAT IN THE HELL?! kok bisa -_-

17 Jo Weil

18 Brad Pitt

19 Thore Scholermann

20 Van Hansis

21 Ryan Reynolds

22 Jake Silbermann

23 Paul Rudd

24 David Beckham

25 Chad Allen

26 Chace Crawford

27 James Marsden

28 Paul Walker

29 Johnny Depp

30 Channing Tatum

31 Milo Ventimiglia

32 Daniel Craig

33 Randy Harrison

34 Matthew Rhys

35 Tom Welling

36 Robert Gant

37 David Tennant

38 Russell Tovey

39 Barack Obama

40 Robert Pattinson jauh kan urutannya sama Jensen...

41 T. R. Knight

42 Justin Timberlake

43 John Krasinski

44 Johnathan Rhys-Myers

45 Darryl Stephens

46 Daniel Leary

47 David Boreanaz

48 Ewan MacGregor

49 Henry Cavill

50 Wentworth Miller

51 Taye Diggs

52 Christopher Meloni

53 Mitch Hewer

54 Jason Statham

55 Jensen Atwood

56 Christan Bale

57 James McAvoy

58 Jamie Bamber

59 Gael Garcia Bernal

60 Lee Pace

61 Joseph Gordon-Levitt

62 Nick Adams

63 Matthew Fox

64 Ben Cohen

65 Ryan Gosling

66 Colin Farrell

67 Mario Lopez

68 Eddie Cibrian

69 Hayden Christensen kok dinomer segini sih? buta!

70 Jeffrey Dean Morgan

71 Gerard Butler

72 Clive Owen

73 George Clooney

74 Dave Annable

75 Chris Pine

76 Eric Dane

77 Jude Law

78 Orlando Bloom salah banget kok nomer 78

79 Simon Baker

80 Ian Somerhalder

81 Ben McKenzie

82 Dustin Lance Black

83 Jared Leto kejam!!!! yang nilai buta nih jahat abissss

84 Matt Damon

85 Nathan Fillion

86 Patrick Wilson

87 Trevor Wright

88 Emile Hirsch

89 Justin Hartley

90 Ronnie Kroell

91 Ryan Philippe

92 Brad Rowe

93 Misha Collins

94 Zachary Quinto

95 Ashton Kutcher

96 James Sutton

97 Jason Mraz

98 Kris Allen

99 Wilson Cruz

100 Tahmoh Penikett

yah walaupun beberapa ada yang rada2 aneh tapi ya gapapalah

abis Jensen Ackles nomer 5 sih :D

Hardest, Saddest, Baddest.

2009-05-29T03:02:00.000-07:00

hell yeah, Im totally having the hardest month you know.
There's a problem. Biggo problem.
I want to ignore it, I really want to, I just cant.
I feel guilty for this you know.
Hey, I know I was wrong.
Believe me, I know.

You know, I cant let myself to dissapoint anyone.
At least, Im trying to not to, I always do.

But...........That's what Im trying to say.
I dissapoint someone.

"SAYA KECEWA SAMA KAMU!"

There. She said it.

Well yeaaaah I cried.
It's okay, I let the teachers knew that I was sad.
That I felt guilty for this, you know.

It didn't end just like that,
They kept blaming me.
Hey believe me, I know I was wrong..
I didnt mean to blame anybody, you know.
I've to blame myself for this.
Promise myself to never let this kinda thing happen again.

They were right, I was wrong, I know that, from the beggining.

I wish I could take it back,
I wish I could turn back the time.
I wish I could...
But you know I just couldnt.

Yes, Im having the hardest month.
Because "Surat Pemanggilan Orangtua" laying down beside me, on my desk.

Honestly

2009-05-27T04:25:00.000-07:00

okay then, lemme tell you something now.
when you're madly beautifully in love, lo bakal mikirin orang lain nggak?
apa yang mereka pikirin, apa yang mereka rasain, apalah.

hey, trust me, I've been there.
and my answer would be, no.
gue gak mikirin orang lain waktu gue madly in love..

nah, what i'm trying to say is...
I'm dealing with someone who madly and truly in love with her.

oke, ketika dia cerita, he really doesn't know.
kalo gue sebel, i didn't like it, even a bit.

I'm not jealous or something, cuma....

HEY, LET'S TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE, WOULD WE?!

bosen tau ga sih

what are ya doing right now?

2009-05-26T05:11:00.000-07:00

hm yeah I'm relaxing.................
and chat with some friends, Deel, Atinna & Rio.

well yeah, hardest month yea. exams. the fight-with-girlfriend/boyfriend-that-drives-you-insane thingy. yea, may's the hardest month i think.

gue belom belajar lagi sama sekali buat ulangan, sistem kebut semalam kayanya asik.
tapi ga yakin gue, kalo gue bakal naik kelas. IH AMIT DAH GA NAIK.

erh yea, i made a deal with my boyfriend anyway

"kamu nilainya harus lebih bagus dari aku ya"

"nilai apa dulu, ah nis aku pasti kalah lah"

"jangan gitu apa! nilai biologi sm bingg deh, kalo misalnya kamu lebih bagus aku traktir nonton"

"jangan biologi apa, bingg sm bindo aja"

"erh yaudah suit!"

I lost, gue kalah suit ama cowo gue.

"yes aku menang, jado bindo sm bingg aja ya nis"

"irrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh, tapi awas kamu kalo sampe kalah juga"

erh yeah, I'm having the hardest month,
because I barely lost in "suit"

Tagged by Deel

2009-05-26T04:56:00.000-07:00

10 Favorites
Favorite Season -- Rain
Favorite Time -- Night
Favorite Food -- Instant noodle!
Favorite Drink -- Tehbotol, for sure.
Favorite Ice Cream -- paddle pop
Favorite Sport -- dance
Favorite Actor -- Jensen Ackles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Favorite Actress -- Kristen Stewart

9 Currents
Current Feeling -- happy
Current Drink -- teh botol
Current Time -- 19.00
Current Show on TV -- mr. bean animated series
Current Mobile use -- nokia N76
Current Windows -- Live Messenger
Current Underwear -- errr, Young Hearts
Current Clothes -- Grey T-Shirt
Current Thought -- I'm going to eat, soon.

8 Firsts
First Nickname -- Nissa
First Kiss -- <3
First Crush -- it supposed to be a secret, yea
First Best Friend -- siapadeh ah
First Job -- balesin sms2nya bokap
First Toy -- teddy bears
First Pet -- rabbits

7 Lasts
Last Drink -- teh botol
Last Kiss -- errr boyfriend (on his forehead)
Last Meal -- bread for breakfast
Last Web Site Visited -- cwtv.com/shows/supernatural
Last Movie Watched -- Supernatural
Last Phone Call -- Deel
Last TV show Watched -- SUPERNATURAL!

6 Have You Ever...
Have You Ever Broken the Law -- yes
Have You Ever Been Drunk -- no
Have You Ever Kissed SomeoneSomething You Didn't Know -- NO
Have You Ever Been in the Middle/Close to Gunfire -- yups
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped -- ...
Have You Ever Broken Anyone's Heart -- maybe
Have You Ever Been Broken Hearted -- yes, yes, yes.

5 Things
Things You Can Hear Right Now -- keyboard's sound.
Things On Your Bed -- school bag, camera, pillow.
Things You Ate Today -- bread, noodle.
Things You Can't Live Without -- God, Family, Friends, Internet & Computer.
Things You Do When You Are Bored -- ipod

4 Places You Have Been Today-- rumah, sekolah, parkiran sekolah, mobil.

3 Things On Your Desk Right Now --handphone, ipod, monitor.

2 Choices -- ..........for what?

1 Place You Want To Visit -- Russia!

Winchester Fever

2009-05-26T04:32:00.000-07:00

Hey, It's Tuesday :D

Well, I don't know what's good at Tuesday, anyway.
Cuma pengen nulis doang (-_-)

Er yes, lately, I'm addicted to Supernatural TV Series.
Ho god, pertama tamanya gue liat di Trans 7 gitu, terus gue liat si Jensen Ackles sama Jared Padalecki kan ya.
Terus emak gue ikut nonton..........tiba2 waktu liat Jensen dia teriak

"ASTAGHFIRULLAH ITU SIAPA GANTENG BANGET!"

Hey! And I realized.
Hell yeah, he's handsome.

Setelah saat itu gue beli semua dvdnya dia.
Pernah gitu gue sakit terus gamasuk, terus gue udh planning dari pagi pengen ngabisin 2 Season. KESAMPEAN. Terus penasaran pengen season 3. terus pergi deh beli saking ga tahannya.

lagian siapa sih yang tahan ngeliat orang seganteng ini?

Atau yang ini

ganteng deh pokonya.............................:BBBBBBBBBBB

after that, I surfed the internet and searched some information about them.
anddddd jensen ackles's 31, jared padalecki's 29 or so.
they're still hot, anyway.

waktu nonton supernatural, kan mereka namanya Dean & Sam Winchester kan ya
setelah saat itu, dimanapun gue berada gue pasti ngomongin dia.............they're too hot to forget, anyway.

terus Baby kena virus gue. dia ikutan minjem.

terus besokan paginya waktu mau balikin season 1

"NISSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA DEAN GANTENG BUANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT"

Emh yeah, I got a Winchester Fever.

Hello again

2009-05-26T04:29:00.001-07:00

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY!

How are you anyway?

Parah abis, kapan terakhir ya gue nulis blog?
Gue nulis blog mood-mood-an sih -_-

Terus tadinya gue udah pengen bikin new blog lagi cuma gajadi ah, ini aja di make over ulang -_-
Errrrrr

Yes, 2 weeks later, I'll have an exams.
A fuckin freaggin exams.

-_-

Males abis gasih

People

2009-03-21T20:46:00.000-07:00

Im sick of people deh

Ecspecially when they were holding their blackberry

Blackberries

Lots of Blackberries

Iri gitudeh

Jalan dipajang2 bawa Blackberry

hiiii

Well then, gue lebih pengen Nokia sidekick itusih

But anyway

ini gapenting

dasar minggu membosankan

Nostalgia

2009-03-15T03:35:00.000-07:00

Gue kaga demen nostalgia, sumpah.

Mending gituya, nostalgia yang bagus bagus gitu, tapi kalo yang buruk buruk?
Hem, rasanya pengen gali kubur duluan aja-_-

Apalagi kalo baca Blognya Deel yang detail banget itu setiap harinya.
Gue liat liat bulan bulan yang lama lama, terus ada cerita tentang gue.

Seketika gue lemes,
Mata gue melek (emak melek kok)

Cuma gimanadong?
Dulu saking bahagianya sampe lompat-lompat,
Terus ga kebayang ternyata semuanya cuma sebentar.

Damn, Shit Happens man.

Missing

2009-03-14T19:28:00.000-07:00

Pernah ngerasa kangen yang berlebihan ga?

Sampe yang ngerasa lo pengen garuk-garuk tanah kalo ga ketemu?

Gue sedang merasakannya lowc (.............)
Gatau kenapa padahal kemaren ketemu.

Tapi tauah!!!!!!!!!!! Namanya juga orang jatuh cinta.

Hem anyway ini posting gapenting bangetloh

Dadaaah!

1403

2009-03-14T07:23:00.000-07:00

It's White Day, Dumbass!

Gue lupa beneran hari ini White Day lohya.
Soalnya tadi gue ngerasa strange gitu, abisan masa semua orang di PIM beduaan semuadehya.
Termasuk guedong ;p

Dan Deel Marco.

Deel : "Eh hari ini White Day loh for your information"
Gue : "Hm? White Day?"
Deel : "Iya"
Gue : "Oh"

Bener-bener ga tertarik gitudeh. Perasaan bagusan Valentine kemanamana.

Iyanggak?

Harutomo Seto

2009-03-13T05:00:00.001-07:00

Tomo adalah manusia favorit gue dikelas, gatau kenapa
Dia sangatlah unik

Oh god, gue gapunya fotonya.
Double Shits!!!!!!!!!!!!! (?)

Tomo itu orangnya sipit, badannya gede, terus kalo ngomong suka dikecilin suaranya.

Tomo suka banget ngomong

"Apaan sih"

Kaya waktu itu,

Tomo : "Aduh aduh!!!! Aduh!!!!! Pengen minjem!!!! Aduh apanamanya!!!! Aduh!!! ITU APAAN!!! Aduh apaan namanya!!!!!!!! Aduh!!!!!!!"

Gue : "Tomo apaan Tomo apaan?!"

Tomo : "ITU APAAN!!!?"

Gue : "Apaannya apaan?!!!!!"

(sekelas sambil meratiin gue sama Tomo semua)

Tomo : "ITU BOLPEN ITU!!!!!!!!!!!"

Gue : "Astaghfirullohalazim......(Dzikir setelah itu)"

...

Dan Tomo juga suka berpose ala Model Kekar di sampul depan majalah.

Tomo adalah teman dan sahabat bermainku ♥

(qod ini aku cuma mainan kok sumpah, aku sayang kamu muah)

Dongo

2009-03-13T04:51:00.000-07:00

Gatau budeg apa dongo gituyah,
Gue suka keliataan begoooooooooo banget,
Kaya waktu itu malu banget

Cinintya : "aduh hari ini indah sekali ya"
Gue : "Hah kontes tubuh indah?"
Cinintya : "DONGO BUDEK"

Terus apalagi yaa

Nyokap : "Aduh mama pengen ke sogo"
Gue : "Hah? Pengen masak soto?"
Nyokap : "KE SOGO"

Hm sebenernya banyak banget
Sampe tadi barusan...........................

Dhania : "Cantik cantik kok budeg ya"
Gue : "Hah? apa? makan gudeg?"
Cinintya : "Iya dhania kira lu lagi makan gudeg" --> sampe gemes
Gue : "Gue ga lagi makan gudeg kok"
Dhania : "DONGO"

Sampe malu

Anyway,

Happy Birthday

Muhammad Faqih Adninnu!

Wish

2009-03-13T04:37:00.000-07:00

I wish sih ya ulangtaun gue dapet....

ADUUUUUUUUUH!!!!!!!!

padahal ulangtaun gue masih sebulan lagi tapi gatau kenapa kepikiran melulu

!

2009-03-11T05:31:00.000-07:00

DANNY GOKEY

for American Idol 2009!

Love Poem

2009-03-11T05:11:00.000-07:00

Cinta yang Agung

Adalah ketika kamu menitikkan air mata
Dan masih peduli terhadapnya
Adalah ketika dia tidak mempedulikanmu

Dan kamu masih menunggunya dengan setia

Adalah ketika dia mulai mencintai orang lain
Dan kamu masih bisa tersenyum sembari berkata

‘Aku turut berbahagia untukmu’

Apabila cinta tidak berhasil, bebaskan dirimu
Biarkan hatimu kembali melebarkan sayapnya
Dan terbang ke alam bebas lagi
Ingatlah,

Bahwa kamu mungkin menemukan cinta dan kehilangannya
Tapi

Ketika cinta itu mati,

Kamu tidak perlu mati bersamanya

Orang terkuat bukan mereka yang selalu menang

Melainkan mereka yang tetap tegar ketika mereka jatuh

- Kahlil Gibran -

Wishlist

2009-03-11T04:45:00.000-07:00

SLR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MacBook Pro dong, amiiin ;p

White Contact Lenses, Must have items!

Optional, kalo ga ya gausah ya gapapa-_-

LOMO DIANA, kalo ga dapat SLR kenapa ga Lomo Diana? ;p

Kalo misalnya gue dapet semua di Taun ini, gue jungkir balik dan Sholat 4 waktu (emang gue sholat 4 waktu sih hem, kecuali Ashar ;p)

Amin!!!!!!!

Ketinggalan berita

2009-03-11T04:35:00.000-07:00

Gue sebel TV TV Indonesia
That's why gue nggak pernah nonton TV Indonesia.

Then someday, gue merasa seseorang yang tertinggal kabar di negeri sendiri.

Nyokap : "Nis, Kiki Fatmala kasian deh"
Gue : "Eh? Emang dia kenapa? Ibunya dia?" (ketinggalan banget, berita jaman kapan)
Nyokap : "Hah? Itumah udh kabar taun lalu!"
Gue : "Lah terus kenapa"
Nyokap : "Pantatnya di gr*p* sama Saiful Jamil"
Gue : "Ew!"

Sampe sediiiih banget gara gara berita gitu aja gatau, terus lagi.........

Mbak gue : "Dek, lo tau ga, Ponari itu sehari bisa 50 juta!"
Gue : "Mpok Nari? Nari dimana?"
Mbak gue : "PONARI"
Gue : "Siapa.."
Mbak gue : "ituloh dukun cilik itu, yang katanya diatuh nemu batu waktu petirr kan terus dia bisa nyembuhin segala penyakit pake batu itu"
Gue : "What the hell? Terus dia bikin klinik gitu?"
Mbak gue : "Iya bisa sampe 50 juta sehari"

Hm dunia makin aneh aja.

Yah mendingan gausah liat TV Indonesia kalo gamau tambah stress, gila dunia makin hari makin lama makin ancur aja buset dah!!!! (esmosi)

10

2009-03-10T03:28:00.000-07:00

happy anniversary 4 months!

sama si qodry ganteng yang gapernah mau dibilang ganteng ;p awet awet yaa kita sayaaang jangan ngambek muluuu jangan berantem muluuuuu (k) (k)

hihi anyway kalo dibilang gue ama dia mah udah 10 bulan, cuma banyak yang ga setuju karena gue udah sempet putus lumayan lama sm qodry ;p

For all this 4 months, Ive been spending all of my time with him,

Gue marah marah sama dia karena gue lagi sebel sama orang, atau mungkin gue marah sama dia karena kita lagi berantem, we've been there.

In any kind of conditions, like, waktu gue nangis karena dia, dia minta maaf, janji kalo gabakal ngulangin lagi. Atau waktu dia bete, atau waktu gue bete..

Semuaaaaa ada dia.

Waktu gue nyebelin

Waktu dia nyebelin

Waktu gue lagi sedih, dia satu satunya orang yang tau gue kenapa, masalah gue apa, kenapa gue nangis, dia satu satunya orang yang tau gue nangis sejelek apa waktu itu.

He knows every details of my secrets.

Yang lo semua gapernah tau ;p

anyway pokonya,

I Lovvvvvvvvvvvve qodrrrry more than everything!!!!!!

and to my beloved bestfriends,

happy anniversary 6 months

Dinda Nayaredhanty & Marco Hanif Samudro

(mereka salah satu pasangan yang ga setuju kalo gue udh 10 bulan)

anyway, awet awet yah kalian

10 ;p

2009-03-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

qodry says:
orang cantik baik trs cantik bgt gt deh dia sayaang jg dooooonngg sm akuuu hhahahahahahahahha dia itu cewekkuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu punyaku pokoknya gblh ada yg ngmbl

qodry says:
orangnya cantik baik gtdeeeeeh perfect deh pokoknya aku sayaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnggg bgt sm dia gt sampe gamau keilangan cantik lg bnyk fansnya haha

I Love You dooong Qodry

muaaaaaah ;p

1234

2009-03-08T04:31:00.000-07:00

Gue ngga tau harus namain posting ini apa-_-
Karena gue juga gatau ini tentang apa.

I hate to tell you this
And I hate to admit that im in

Jealous

gue gatau harus ceritain gimana tapi yah

semua berawal dari curiga, sampe akhirnya....

baru pertamaaaaa kali gue ngerasa itu.

i mean pernah sih-_- cuma ga sebesar ini.

well then,

i know that no one can replace him.

Cry Me A River, Justin Timberlake

2009-03-08T04:18:00.000-07:00

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
Made other plans
But I bet you didn't think your thing would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did
I already know, I found out from him
There is just no chance, of you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone?
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river

I know that they say
That some things are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him
And you know it (don't act like you don't know it)
All of the these things people told me
Keep messing with my head

You should have picked honesty

Then you may not have lost the game

Sunday, Bloody sunday

2009-03-08T04:12:00.000-07:00

Hm hari ini emang gue lagi bad mood,
Ecspecially, its all because of it.
Well, bukan it juga sih-_-

Awalnya emang bukan salah dia, tapi kenapa pas gue denger namanya dia, apalagi waktu keluar dari mulut dia, mood gue berubah 360 derajat.
Gue susah senyum, apalagi ketawa.

Ada sesuatu yang ngganjel, kalo ditanya,
Itu curiga.

Akhir akhir ini emang gue tau gue ngeselin gitudeh-_- gue emang agak Negative Thinking dan selalu Bad Mood.
Apalagi kalo dihubung-hubungin sama kelakuan, dan balasan kelakuan dari dia.
Well then, lo gaperlu taudeh siapa orangnya.

Kalo dikasih tau juga ntar jadi tambah rumit

Gossipers shit

2009-03-04T03:53:00.000-08:00

Paling benci sama guru tukang GOSIP

kalo dibilang sih ya, emang guru sih gue tau pasti suka ngmngin anak muridnya. cuma HELLOOOOOOOO EVERYONE, do they really need to do that? maksudnya, we're just students gitukanya, dan APASIH.

Apalagi kalo Gosip itu udh lebih dari sekedar Gosip.

Its more than just a small talk, its a bigggggggggg problem.

Waktu guru lo, memaksa lo untuk change your personality, to change who you really are, who YOU are, to change WHO YOU REALLY REALLY ARE.

Apakah itu namanya guru?

We ARE unique, we are different. iya gak?

SO? WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM SIH?

cuma gara gara lo pendiem, terus seenak enaknya diginiin?

WOW, guru jaman sekarang udah mulai iri sama muridnya.

udah mulai mengada-ngada.

I dont like teachers. Really

Personality test

2009-03-04T03:30:00.000-08:00

Ini kaya punya Deel, dan hasilnya hampir sama:

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. --> kayaknya iya deh ;p

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. --> bener dongg

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. --> bener

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love --> bener banget

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. --> kayanya salah

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. --> salah

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. --> bener

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. --> bener

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. -- BENER BANGET

Night tears

2009-03-01T04:19:00.000-08:00

You don't marry someone you can live with,

You marry the person who you cannot live without.

Unknown Author

I Just Want One More Day With You

I'm so sad and depressed

Is all I want to do is rest

I go to sleep at night

But my dreams I just can't fight

I think of you lying in that bed

And wonder if there is anything I could have said

I wish you were still here

But I know that you are still near

I love you more than you know

I just wish you didn't have to go

I just want one more day with you

And I know thats what you would have wanted too

I miss you more and more each day

There is so much more we had to say

I know I will see you again

But my life is just started to begin.

Love

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

The Bible : 1 Corinthians 13:4 -

Cuma gue yang ngerti apa artinya yang diatas ini

Homework

2009-02-27T03:52:00.000-08:00

Gara gara dapet PR Bingg, gue terpaksa bikin puisi.
Awalnya puisi gue alay banget gitu tentang sekolah-_- kampung deh pokonya

Terus Baby minta gue bikinin puisi, akhirnya gue bikinin.
EH ternyata gue lumayan bisa terus gue ketagihan kan

Akhirnya gue bikinin buat Dhewi kaya gini

Im sitting here, cant believe whats just happening

Ive lost everything

Im crying of everything

Im crying of you, cause Im losing you

Too many memories we've been through

And everything's about you

I know Ive been selfish

I know Ive been foolish

Im sorry for everything

I cant believe what I just did

Im losing the most special person in my life

Im losing you

The memory, that I wish I could forget it

Its all about you, because youre the only one in my heart

Hm otak gue lagi jalan, jadi terharu sama puisi gue sendiri :')

Terus gue iseng iseng bikin sendiri tapi ya puisinya tetep kampung sih-_- nihnih

Today is the happiest day in my life

Ive got what I want in my life

Its you, who always make me smile

And its you, who always there besides me

Thank you for everything that you give to me

Your smile, its like a gift to me

Your laugh, its like a stars coming down from the skies

I wrote this poem with smile in my face

Because I remember your smile

Thank you for everything that you gave to me

qodry :p

2009-02-26T04:21:00.000-08:00

qodry says:
qodry (L) nissa

qodry says:
aku sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaannggg kamuuuu
　　　
qodry says:
jgn pernah tinggalin aku yaaaaah sayaaaaaaang

Today's song

2009-02-26T04:12:00.000-08:00

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh

I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh

Because every breath that you will take

While you are sitting next to me

Will bring life into my deepest hopes

What's your fantasy?

♥

Your Call, Secondhand Serenade

Gossip Teachers season 1

2009-02-26T04:07:00.000-08:00

Kesel ya sama guru guru kalo lagi ngegosipin murid-muridnya.

Pelajaran Bu Indah,
Bu Indah : "Nis, kamu waktu itu ke pim sama qodry ya?"
Gua : "Pas kapan dah?"
Bu Indah : "Saya liat kamu lagi berempat, kamu qodry riri sama aga"
Gua : "Oh iya saya tau LAH ada ibu?"
Bu Indah : "Ada, tapi saya langsung pulang begitu ngeliat kalian"
Gua : "Mmh, yaya"

Kenapadeh? Gue bisa ga ngeliat Bu Indah gitu-_-
Gataudeh guru guru langsung pada ngomongin apa engga.

Jadi parno sama guru

Best Class

2009-02-26T03:33:00.000-08:00

Okedeh hari ini gatau kenapa gue kayak capekkkkk banget gitu yah soalnya latian dance buat Ricci Cup!!! oke pokonya doain menang yah-_-

Oke lanjut.
Gue kasian banget ya sama guru-guru kalo lagi ngajar di kelas gue, 8c.
Bisa bisa yang galak jadi tersiksa-_- ga tersiksa jugasih cuma pasti bakal susah banget
Soalnya anaknya gada yang bener sama sekali kalo diliatliat.

Kaya pelajarannya Pak Arbaih..
Pak Arbaih : "Jadi kata orang bijak seperti saya, mendingan mandi keringat duluan daripada mandi air mata belakangannya"
Fahmi : "Lah kalo gitu mendingan gausah mandi pak"
Sekelas : "HAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

Fahmi tuh ya akhir akhir ini otak humornya lagi jalan banget deh.

Terus pelajaran Pak Yudha,
Pak Yudha : "Jadi, kerjasama itu adalah lalala (ngapain amat nginget ginian) contohnya adalah..............................."
Faqih : "Nyontek waktu ulangan Biologi"
Pak Yudha : "Saya gak ngajarin itu loh"
Fahmi : "Cuma itukan salah satu contoh"
Pak Yudha : "Contoh yang tidak baik"
Gue : "Heleh kaya bapak waktu masih sekolah gapernah nyontek ajadeh"
Pak Yudha : "Ya gimana ya sometimes ya saya nyontek jugasih"
Sekelas : "WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Akhirnya jadi malah gabelajar gitudeh-_- susah ngajarin 8c mah

Silence

2009-02-25T04:51:00.000-08:00

I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence

So please just break the silence

Secondhand Serenade, A Twist In My Story

demi allah ya, akhir akhir ini gue suka banget dengerin a twist in my story loh.

okay, knock it off-_-

gimanasih ya, gue lagi bingung sekarang ini

gatau mau ngomongin apa.

demi allah gue lagi diem dieman, sama adadeh mautauaja.

dia : "lah-_-"

gue : "ehehehehehehehehe"

dia : "hahahahahaha"

udah diem. kurang garing apa coba?

mau ngomongin apa!!!!!

TOLONG.

24th February 2009

2009-02-24T04:34:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday my Dhania!

may all your dreams come true yah ;p

okedeh, selain hari ini hari ulangtaunnya Delvina Rahmadhaniaku ;p

hari ini itu apa ya? gatau sih sebenernya gada yang spesial.

cumaaa gua lagi rada bete gitudeh-_- bukan karena apa apa, cuma bete gituloh mood gua naik turun

waktu si qodry ke kelas gue, gue bilangnya mood gua bagus.

waktu pelajaran matematika, mood gue mendadak down.

waktu ketemu qodry lagi mood gue bagus lagi-_-

okedeh itu sih namanya kalo sama qodry doang moodnya bagus!!!!!

okedeh penting-_-

A Twist In My Story, Secondhand Serenade

2009-02-24T04:25:00.000-08:00

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive

I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get

?

2009-02-23T03:21:00.000-08:00

Its all like im the one to blame, is it?

Dream

2009-02-22T05:16:00.000-08:00

Kira kira dua hari yang lalu,
Gue tuh kaya capek banget gitukan,

Nah waktu tidur gue mimpi aneh banget!!!!

Jadi ceritanya gue lagi di Dufan, gue berempat
Si qodry, marco sama deel, sama gue.

Terus yang bikin gue kaget,
Di Dufan itu, gue gandengan sama marco!!! (?)
Terus deel gandengan sm qodry :'(

sedih abis, gua gataudeh artinya apa.
pokonya kita have fun banget disana, dalam keadaan gue pacarnya marco, bukan qodry!!!!!!!!

Terus yah, pokonya tiba2 gua udh dirumah, gue lagi otpan gatau sama siapa terus gue itu ngebuat poster galaxee!!!!
-__________________-
Terus gue taro di profile Friendster (gatau kenapa Friendster) gue.

Terus ya posternya itu warna kuning gitu-_-
gatau deh ah!!

Pokonya di poster itu gue ngundang Coldplay sama 30 Seconds To Mars.

Ngimpi beneran gua.

Going Under, Evanescence

2009-02-20T05:16:00.000-08:00

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me

Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies so
I don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thoughts in my head so
I can't trust myself anymore

So go on and scream
Scream at me I"m so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under
I'm dying again

Bottom of The Hell (6)

2009-02-12T04:42:00.000-08:00

Hmm well gue terinspirasi sama posting di blognya Rana (www.ranskys.blogspot.com)

"kasian ya pj jd banyak guru kasar :') selain cerita yg kata kata yg dikontarkan oleh guru guru tersayangku di post sebelumnya.... "

Iya banget bangetan loh. Gue inget waktu kapan itu yah...

Jadituh Mamat berbuat salah sama Ma'am Lisa, dan gue lupa karena apa -_-

Terus tiba-tiba..

Mamat : "Maaf, Ma'am"

Ma'am Lisa : "Mamat, YOU JUST GO TO THE BOTTOM OF THE HELL!!"

Mamat & sekelas : "(shocked) oow Mat"

Hoo my god gausah lebay ya tolong gasegitunya juga yah. Masa sampe disumpahin begitu siapa yang gak sakit hati!! Gue jadi Mamat sih udah kesel banget pasti.

Kenapa bangetyah harus pake kata kata begitu?

Translate this!

2009-02-11T06:25:00.000-08:00

Ich liebe mein Freund, sein name ist Muhammad Qodry, wir waren zusammen für drei Monate. Das war die besten drei Monate, die ich immer habe. Ich liebe wirklich ihn. Wir wurden gemeinsam seit 10 November 2008, und ich hoffe es niemals enden wird.

Liebe, Nissa

Goodbye, Pak Rasito!!!!!!

2009-02-11T03:05:00.000-08:00

Hooo my god.
Apakabar semua? udah lama banget gue ga posting.
Abisan akhir akhir ini masih males posting wikiki ;p

Well, then. Deel besok sampe minggu (besok itu kamis) ke Singapur.
I'll miss youuuuuuuuu!!!!!
Wah bakal kesepian temen jajan nih gue (..) okay then.

Hmm what else?
Oh ya!

Pak Rasito telah tiada :'"""""""""""""""""""""(
Pak Rasito tuh jadi orang yang kaya ngurus PJ gitu, ngecek segala sesuatunya deh.
Diatuh orangnya tuh kaya iseng gitu kan,

Dia suka ngegodain gue, suka meletin gue gitu. Pokonya iseng deh!!
Makanya kadang gue suka kesel.

Apalagi waktu itu, waktu dance di PJ Cup 2008.
Kita dance lagi di lagu tengah-tengah gitu, terus mati musiknya.
Nyala lagi, tapi dari awal lagi.
Itu garagara Pak Rasito yang nyender di stereo kl gasalah terus kecabut deh kabelnya.

Hmm yes, i hated him so much.

Tapi ya gimana yaaa :"(
Dia mau segimana juga tetep baik sama kita.
Woohoohoo gue sedih gitudeh sekarang, kehilangan orang yang suka ngisengin kita gitu :'(

Well, then. Life goes on.

You're alive, you growing up, and you're dead, that's life.

Promises.

2009-02-08T01:02:00.000-08:00

Ya Allah apakabaaaar?
Udah lima taun gue ga ngisi blog.

Astagaaaa abisan akhir akhir ini gue rada bingung sih mau nyeritain apa yah (..) hidup gue lagi biasa biasa aja, tepatnya sih, seneng seneng aja ;p

Well, let's see what I've got for this week...
Kemaren sabtu, tanggal 7 Februari 2009

Ada yang udah merencanakan sesuatu tapi dibatalkan loh!!!!!
Kesel deh gue.
Padahal udah janji dan mengumbar-ngumbarkannya gitu deh, kurang ajar

Makan tuh janji!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(oh well, ini bukan problem gue kok, qodry is still the best ya gasih ohyaiyalah)

31st January 2009

2009-01-31T00:59:00.000-08:00

Hari ini banyak yang harus dilakukan.
Gue bangun jam tujuh, mandi, ganti baju.

Langsung ke sekolah, ada acara G@LAXEE TRAVENOUS di sekolah gue.
Gue ditelpon Dhania,

"Nissa ayo buru dateng yah, gue butuh cdnya"

Terus gue langsung ke UKS, langsung latian dikit terus akhirnya kita nonton Silence is The New Noise doooooooooooooooong ;p

Terus akhirnya gue di make up sama Tabitha, di keriting (walaupun akhirnya rambut gue lurus-lurus juga)

Dan akhirnya, It's Show Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mukanya Sasha udah gaenak, gue juga udah panik. Apalagi Dhania, dia gabisa diem. dikit dikit lari kesana kemari. baca ayat kursi (enggatau iya apa engga)

Akhirnya gue tampil. Alhadulllillah sukses dooooooong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yah walaupun I know kurang kompak, tapi qodry bilang bagus jadi ya bagus ajadeh wehe ;p

Gue pulang sama Deel, Debi & Nesya, mereka kerumah gue.

Kita ngomongin seseorang, yang paling hot itu gue sama deel, karena kita yang paling 'berhubungan' sama orang ini.

Tiba tiba deel bilang,

"ADUH PERASAAN GUE GAENAK, GIMANA NIH KALO TIBA TIBA blablabla (sensor)"

terus akhirnya....

"UDAH KITA HEADBANGING AJA!!!!!!!!!!"

gue, nesya deel melakukan headbanging.
lumayan bikin hati rada tenang sih-____________________-

nanti abis maghrib gue bakal balik lagi ke galaxee, i'll see ya there!

Jahat

2009-01-29T05:03:00.001-08:00

JAHAAAAAAAAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(oke akhir2 ini gue posting yang engga penting dulu yah)

Gatel

2009-01-27T03:38:00.000-08:00

GATEL DASAR GATEL GATEL GATEL GATEEEEL YAA!!!!!

No Air, Jordin Sparks Feat. Chris Brown

2009-01-25T23:58:00.000-08:00

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect meto live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me?
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

Berlebihan & Kekurangan

2009-01-25T23:44:00.000-08:00

Sesuatu yang berlebihan itu ga bagus
Sesuatu yang kekurangan juga ga bagus
Jadi enaknya apa?
Pas-pasan.

Nih ya,
Tampang kalo terlalu cantik ngebosenin.
Tampang kalo terlalu jelek ntar dikira pohon (?)

Pinter kalo kepinteran jadi idiot
Bego kalo kebegoan nanti dikira imbisil

Sesuatu yang berlebihan dan kekurangan itu gak bagus.

Gue terinspirasi dari blognya Deel.

Sayang kalo terlalu sayang juga ga bagus
Sayang kalo ga sayang ama sekali ntar malah selingkuh.

Eh tapi kalo ga sayang ama sekali belom tentu selingkuh ya?
Tapi intinya gitudeh pokonya!!!!!-_-

Gue udah pernah ngerasain soalnya (too many experiences gini nih)
Dua duanya lagi.

Pernah gituyah, saking excitednya gue pacaran sama dia sampe buset, sampe sayang banget parah sekali gitudeh. Lebaylah pokonya.

Tapi, itu bertahan sangat tidak lama.
Ebuset ebujug, gua udah mau nyembeleh kepala gua-_-
Saking frustasinya gue sampe bingung gimana caranya suka sama orang lain.
Parah ga? Iyalah.

Hiiiiih sedih deh pokonya.

Pernah lagi, saking gue udah gatahannya sama orang satu ini
Gue sampe bingung gimana lepas dari dia.
Gue suka sama orang lain, deket sama orang lain.
Pokonya gitudeh.
Jadi gaenak sama dia yakan?

Intinya, segala galanya harus imbang, pas.
Kalo nggak nanti berat sebelah.

Pincang deh (?)

Yum

2009-01-24T19:20:00.000-08:00

Because Of You, Kelly Clarkson

2009-01-24T18:25:00.000-08:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stay too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Taik

2009-01-24T18:04:00.000-08:00

KATAIN GUE AJA TERUS BEGOIN GUE AJA TERUS LO PIKIR GUE GATAU APA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

,

2009-01-23T03:29:00.000-08:00

MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAF BUSET

Untitled

2009-01-23T03:21:00.001-08:00

I always cry, I do cry all night

If you just walk away and leave me crying

If you just turn off your phone, and pretend that everything's okay

If you just tell me that "Everything is allright, dear"

Oh, Hell no.

I know that you're mad at me.

You always do.

You never know what Im feeling.

Im tired of crying,

Im tired of you.

I always regret everything

And I always blaming my self

Well I said Im sorry,

Dont you get it?

Friday, 23rd January 2008.

2008

2009-01-22T06:22:00.000-08:00

2008 Resolutions!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gue nemu di komputer gue waktu lagi otpan sama qodry.

1. Dapet cowok baru. (tercapai)
2. Rajin sholat biar jd anak alim (tercapai seperempat)
3. Ranking 2 dong nyet (sama sekali tidak tercapai)
4. Kurus. (malah menggendut)
5. Jauh lebih charming (i dont know. what do you think?)
6. Muka mulus kaya pantat bayi (malah nambah banyak)
7. Belajar lebih giat yey (boong abis gamungkin)
8. Mengurangi internet dong euy (malah tambah addicted sama internet)
9. Mandiri (tercapai)
10. OSIS. (engga tercapai)

Oke sodara sodara, resolusi, impian lo engga semuanya gampang dicapai. liat diatas? rata-rata merah semua.
Tapi 2008 itu banyak banget experiences yang gue dapet.

#1. Gimana harus menghargai sesuatu/seseorang.
Gue merasa kehilangan sama seseorang yang gue anggep bukan siapa siapa. Padahal, waktu gue kehilangan dia baru gue ngerasa kalo dia berarti buat gue. Well, penyesalan selalu datang di akhir cerita.

#2. Gimana harus memilih seseorang, bener bener dari hati.
Gue pernah salah pilih orang yang udah gue perjuangin sampe mati-idup. Ternyata dia hanya membawa kesialan dan kesialan dalam hidup gue. Gue malah sengsara karena ada dia di hidup gue.

3#. Gimana rasanya kekalahan.
Men, ini yang paling susah. Gue pengen banget ini dari dulu. Dari dulu. Banget. Sampe akhirnya, Gue berusaha sebisa mungkin, I do as best as I can. Tapi ternyata semua cuma mimpi. Gue gagal. Gue kalah.

4#. Gimana kehilangan seseorang yang sangat sangat sangat sangat lo sayangin.
MEEEN INI MEMBUAT GUE PENGEN BUNUH DIRI, SUER. Gimana rasanya lo udah percaya sama orang tetapi dia hanya nganggep lo kaya mainan. Itu sakit luar biasa parahnya.

5#. Dapet yang pantas didapetin.
Setelah semua kegagalan, di bulan November gue berbahagia. Bangkit dari keterpurukan. cieh. Bahagialah. Ini dia, Ini dia.

Oke itu dia semuanya-_-

Good Night, Readers.

Pengadilan First Kiss

2009-01-22T04:01:00.000-08:00

deelampu says:
deelampu says: (6:55:37 PM)
waktu aku sms yah hihi///
marco says: (6:58:01 PM)
iyoi
marco says: (6:58:01 PM)
untung ada kamu sayaaaaaang
marco says: (6:58:03 PM)
kalo ga aku ga tau

deelampu says:
hihi///

Nissa says:
sayang

Nissa says:
oh sayangku

Nissa says:
YES GUE GAMAU KALAH

Nissa says:
QODRRRRR OL

deelampu says:
....

deelampu says:
semoga qodry lupa bayar tagihan trs dc

deelampu says:
HAHA GA DENG

Nissa says:
MAKSUDNYA!!!!!

Nissa says:
APA MAKSUDNYA!!!

Nissa says:
HEHEHEH NANTI GUE SURUH CHEPI CIPOK LO LOH!

deelampu says:
IIIHHH JGN

deelampu says:
OGAH

deelampu says:
GUE

deelampu says:
FK

deelampu says:
SAMA ORANG DOER BEGONO

Nissa says:
bener aja dah qodry off huhuhu-_-

Nissa says:
HAHAHA BIARIN

deelampu says:
AHHH

deelampu says:
GUE KAN BERCANDA

deelampu says:
IH

deelampu says:
JIJIIIK

deelampu says:
SERIUS LO BAYANGIN APA KALO CEPI MENDEKATKAN MULUTNYA YANG EXTRA SEXY ITU KE BIBIR LO

Nissa says:
OH GUE BAKAL

Nissa says:
APADONG

Nissa says:
BAKAL

Nissa says:
GUE

deelampu says:
JIJIK KAN LAH YA MAKANNYA JANGAN

Nissa says:
BAKAL GUE TUNTUT KE PENGADILAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Botakin!

2009-01-22T03:35:00.000-08:00

Pelajaran Bahasa Indonesia akhir-akhir ini rusuh karena ada perdebatan
Antara gue dan sekelas, sama Pak Arbaih.

Gara-gara semua cowok pengen rambut gondrong, akhirnya, kita protes ke pak Arbaih, apa hubungannya rambut pendek sama proses belajar mengajar?

Pak Arbaih ngomong tapi gaada yang nanggepin.

Sampe akhirnya..

Pak Arbaih : "YAUDAH! KALIAN SEMUA SAYA TANTANG, KALO KAMU (nunjuk ke Dimas) DAPET RATA RATA TUJUH KOMA LIMA, SAYA RELA BOTAK!"
Nissa : "Enak aja bapak doang, semua guru bidang studi saya botakin"
Dimas : "Cewek cowok ya pak"
Baby : "Bu Endang botakin"
Dhania : "Bu Wita botakin"
Nissa : "Bu Kiki B-O-T-A-K-I-N, itu nomer satu di dunia"

Semua anak punya jawaban yang beda, karena masing masing ada dendam sama guru terserndiri,

Kalo gue sendiri sih...................

#1. Bu Biologi kelas 8 yang Lucu dan Imut. Ohya, menggemaskan juga.
Dia itu nomer satu di dunia, musuh terburuk gue. Dia selalu curiga sama gue, dalam keadaan apapun. Dia selalu sewot sama gue. Selalu.

Itu doang. Yang lainnya sih fine-fine aja sama gue ehehehhe-_-

Kalo aja yah, ada gitu sehari kita boleh apa2in guru. apa aja.

Gue bakal,

#1. Botakin si Ibu Guru Imut.
#2. Semua guru gue suruh upacara. Petugas Benderanya Bu Endang, Bu Kiki, Ma'am Lisa.

Udah ah. kasian juga guru-_--

Crackers Jangkrik

2009-01-22T03:30:00.000-08:00

Sebenernya, pelajaran SW minggu ini damai-damai aja
(walaupun gue kepergok Pak Dar nyoret-nyoret meja SW)

Sampe akhirnya..

Diovi : "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!"

Otomatis semua manusia ngeliat ke dia,
Dia lagi ngeliatin Chepi sambil muka muka jijik.

TAUNYA!!!!!!!
Chepi makan jangkrik.

Jadi itu jangkrik ditaro di tangannya, terus dia ambil pake LIDAH, terus dia masukin mulut terus dia kunyah.

Enak? Asin katanya.

Dasar orang normal.

(..)

2009-01-19T04:20:00.000-08:00

He's name is Charles Michael Murray

But we know him as Chad Michael Murray.

And He's 27

Interest?

Dream

2009-01-17T23:40:00.000-08:00

Tadi malem badan gue berasa gaenak,
Makanya gue tidur jam 8 malem gitu, badan gue panas.
Terus gue mimpi jangka panjang..................

Jadi pokonya gue sama qodry lagi jalan di pim-_-
Terus ketemu sama Deel & Dimas (mereka lagi jalan bareng gitu)
Terus ketemu sama Tabitha sama John Mayer (....)
Terus ketemu Dhewi sama Kevin (......)
Sebenernya ada banyak lagi tapi gue lupa orang-orangnya.

Pokonya semua make seragam ke pim, kecuali gue, sama Dhewi.
Dhewi pake full make up gitudeh.
Sementara gue pake baju kawinan (apabanget luarbiasa)

Terus pokonya jalan jalan gitu.
Tautaunya pokonya tiba tiba aja kita udah ada di sekolah,

Terus gue menangin lomba apaaaaaaa gitu.
Terus hadiahnya itu dapet Otak Otak gratis buat sekelas-_-

Nah, terus Otak Otak itu mau gue bagi ke sekelas.
Tau taunya Tabitha dateng,

Tabitha : "Nissa bagi otak otaknya!"

Terus dia ngambil 3 otak otak

Nissa : "TABITHA ITU BUAT SEKELAS, JANGAN MARUK DONG!!!"

Terus kita kaya berantem gitudeh intinya-_-
Tau taunya di mimpi itu gue kebangun dari tidur (jadi gue mimpi kalo gue lagi mimpi)

Terusssssss.............................

Gue sms Tabitha

"Tabitha lo mimpi otak otak ga?"

Tabitha bales

"Iya nis"

Udah deh, gue kebangun dari mimpi gue...

WHATTHEHEEELL?!!!

Something Right, Westlife

2009-01-16T02:33:00.000-08:00

Never thought that I'd so inspired
Never thought that I'd find the higher truth
I believed that love was overrated
'Till the moment I found you

Now baby I know I don't deserve
The love you give me
But now I understand that

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you
So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing
Doing something right

It's because of you I feel so lifted
I've been looking at my life from higher ground
Never thought I'd be so elated
You're the one that turned it all around

As Long As You Love Me, Backstreet Boys

2009-01-16T02:29:00.000-08:00

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leavin' my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby

Kenapa?

2009-01-16T02:21:00.000-08:00

Kenapa bumi bulat?

Kenapa ada huruf A?

Kenapa ada huruf dan angka?

Kenapa nama pakaian yang dipake di bawah itu celana?
Kenapa gak penghapus?

Kenapa kita nulis pake pensil?
Kenapa gak pake remote?

Kenapa kita tinggal di bumi?
Kenapa gak tinggal di Jupiter?

Kenapa nama gue Nissa?
Kenapa gak nama gue Lidah?

Kenapa lo manusia?
Kenapa gak lo nyamuk?

Kenapa.............................

(penting abis -___-)

Razia

2009-01-15T03:49:00.000-08:00

Gue benci razia,
Sekarang gue tanya deh, siapa yang suka razia?!!!!!

Tapi razia kali ini razia yang lucu gitu.
Razia hp kamera.
KENAPA GA LAIN KALI SEKALIAN AJA RAZIA HP YANG BISA SMS?!!!!! HAH? AMBIL AJA SEMUA HP YANG BISA SMS!

Kuda lari bawa sarung!!! kesel gua-_-

Nah, kali ini gue lagi pelajaran SW.

Tiba tiba ma'am Lisa sama Yudha dateng.

Mem Lisa : "SIAPA YANG HPNYA BERKAMERA?"

Seketika gua mati. engga deng, gua keringet dingin.

KARENA GUE BAWA HP KAMERAAAA!!!!
akhirnya gue taro di kantong.

tautaunya kantongnya diperiksa gitu-_-

akhirnya gue taro tas.
waktu tasnya diperiksa,
gue taro kantong.

GA KETAUAN DEEEEH :P

Dan gue bahagia!

Teachers

2009-01-15T03:28:00.000-08:00

Guru enggak selalu bener.
Iya nggak?

Bukannya gimana gimana ya, setelah diceritain sama qodry, atau baca di blognya deel (superdeel.blogspot.com)

Qodry : "Ya gitu Nis, masa yah kan gaada yang ngelakuin, cuma masa disuruh ngaku padahal kita gasalah apa apa, orang bukan kita yang salah masa disuruh maksa salah" <--- kira kira begini ya ga sih yang-_-

Deel : "Bu Rini : "kalo gaada yang ngaku seluruh kelas ditahan gaboleh pulang!"APABANGET! PJ MULAI NYEBELIN DEH AKHIR - AKHIR INI" (kutipan dari blognya Deel)

YA GIMANA YA, NGGAK SELALU GURU ITU BENER!

Gue heran sama guru-guru jaman sekarang, kenapa dia harus menyalahgunakan kekuasaannya sebagai guru, malah jadi seseorang yang selalu menyalahkan orang lain, TERUTAMA MURIDNYAAAAA!!!!!!! atau NEGATIVE THINKING SAMA MURIDNYA SENDIRIIIIII?!

GAK SEMUA MURID NAKAL ITU SEBEGITU NAKALNYA YA TOLONG!!!!!!!!!!!!

gasuka gue sama yang beginian.

C for........Creepy!

2009-01-14T03:35:00.000-08:00

Namanya Ch*pi.
Dia freak (sebenernya bukan karena dia emang bersifat freak, tapi bawaan dari lahir kayanya) dia orang yang............aneh.

Suka bikin kegaduhan dikelas, soalnya dia....
Gitudeh.

Susah juga gue ngejelasinnya
Dia itu lemot
Dia itu lama
Dia itu lambreti makarena.

-_-

Intinya dia lemottttttttt banget.

Harus diomongin 1551 kali baru dia ngerti apa yang kita omongin (engga sih, lebay)

Dan dia itu ANEH!!!

Nah, waktu itu.....................................................................

Faqih : "Ch*p, mendingan jadi cewe apa cowo?"
Ch*pi : "Cewek"
Faqih : "Kenapa cewek?"
Ch*pi : "Karena cewek punya payudara"

Shitty, gue yang disebelahnya Ch*pi langsung ngibrit lari meninggalkan dunia. Enggadeng, lari ke belakang kelas doang-_-

Gue takut abis.

Nah, selain itu Ch*pi juga hobi ngintipin underwear cewek.

Kalo cewek2 kelas gue lagi pada duduk bawah, dia pasti kea ngintip2 terus bibirnya membengkak terus dia ayan (yang terakhir boong)

Intinya dia mupeng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh Ch*pi I HATE YOU.

nama disamarkan takutnya nanti kalo dia tau dia bakal ngubur gue idup-idup.

Lupa.

2009-01-13T04:03:00.000-08:00

Banyak pertanyaan yang membingungkan orang yang ditanya untuk menjawabnya (mampus, ngerti ga lu bahasa kamus gue?)

Nah, kaya ceritanya Fahmi tadi waktu pelajaran Biologi

Bu Kiki : "Jadi, minggu depan kalian akan praktikum tentang sistem pernafasan"
Gue : "Apaan bu prakteknya? Napas?"
Bu Kiki : "Yabukanlaaah!"
Gue : "Oh kirain"
Fahmi : "Jadi inget Ian"
Gue : ".."
Fahmi : "Ian nanya ke emaknya, katanya gini 'Bu, Munir mati kenapa?' terus emaknya jawab, 'lupa napas nak' terus Ian percaya aja"

Im sure that Ian's mom gamau repot-repot nyeritain kejadian Munir meninggal. Kan Munir pake ngopi segala di Coffee Bean, jadi mungkin emaknya males cerita panjang lebar, maka terjadilah jawaban lupa napas tersebut-___-

-________-

Fix You, Coldplay

2009-01-11T01:01:00.000-08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Hem, itu kutipan lagu dari Coldplay, judulnya Fix You.
Gue pernah berasa gitu, sumpah.

Berasa kita worthless, kita gaada artinya
Kita nobody, we can do nothing.

Nothing.

Tapi berapa lama kemudian yah, gue bisa survive.
Asli, survive.

Awalnya lo bakal ngerasa kalo, kita gabakal bisa balik kaya dulu lagi.

But life goes on, mate.

Lama lama gue bisa survive.

You know, there's ALWAYS a better person.
A BETTER PERSON.

Dan akhirnya,
I found him. HIM.

He's better better better better better better better better better better better better better better better better better Better better better better better better better better better better better better. Gabisa diungkapin dah pokonya.

So, keep moving on, mate ;p

Bad Day at Sunday

2009-01-11T00:29:00.000-08:00

Bete paaarah gue hari ini,
Gue gatau mau kemana

Awalnya sih mau ke Sency sama bokap nyokap nonton Yes Man
Tapi tiba tiba males gara gara kepengen tidur,
Udah nyoba tidur malah gabisa.

Maunya apa?
Akhirnya gue nonton Star World,

Alhamdullillahnya ada American Idol 7 Marathon

Yah, at least gue bisa nonton ini sampe malem

What a day...................................

Beda

2009-01-11T00:25:00.001-08:00

Ya, biarin orang ngomong

Edward Cullen is Hot

Edward Cullen is Handsome

Edward Cullen is Cool

Tapi gue punya sendiri,

JACOB BLACK!

Warewolf ter-COOL di dunia.

Ralat terus (8)

2009-01-08T02:56:00.001-08:00

ITU SECONDHAND SERENADE

Vulnearable, Secondrand Serenade

2009-01-08T02:35:00.000-08:00

Share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
Because its cold outside cold outside its cold outside
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside

And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that your scared like me
So let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know were unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me tell me what makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already
I get a B in originality
And it's true I cant go on without you
Your smile makes me see clearer
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

Slow down girl you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see maybe I am much more
You never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone
I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need

Kuliah, Tante tante & Mas mas.

2009-01-08T02:13:00.000-08:00

Gue suka telponan.
Ya, daripada smsan nunggu 5 menit gitu?
Terus ada pending segala macem.

Pulsa juga.
Kalo telpon kan bisa pake telpon rumah,
Murah, dan bukan gue yang bayar :p

Tapi, gue nggak suka ngangkat telpon
Selaluuuuuuuu aja ada orang yang sok tau,
Kaya gini,

Gue : "Halo?"
Orang siapa tauk : "Halo bisa bicara dengan Nur (nama pembokat gue)?"
Gue : "Eh iya dari siapa?"
Orang siapa tauk : "Dari Agus"
Gue : "Nur nya lagi mandi kayanya"
Orang siapa tauk : "Oh yaudah gitu yah makasi ya mas"

SIALAN, emang suara gue sejelek apa sih sampe dikira mas mas?

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Gue merasa bener bener marah gitu-__-
Udah sok tau, manggilnya MAS pula.
Sialan!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ada lagi,

Gue : "Halo"
Orang : "Ya halo, bisa bicara dengan (siapa gitu lupa)?"
Gue : "Iya bisa ini dari?"
Orang : "Dari temennya, Tante"
Gue : "(langsung gue tutup karena merasa tersinggung)"

GUE KESEL.
EMANG SUARA GUE KAYA TANTE TANTE?
KAYA MAS MAS?
HAH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya emang bukan salah mereka sih
Soalnya mereka gatau tampang kita kaya apa.

Tapi itu ga berarti semua orang GAK sok tau...

Kaya waktu itu,

Gue lagi di salon,
Mau potong rambut,

Terus ada tukang salonnya gitu ya bencong,

Bencong : "Nissa ya?"
Gue : "Iya"
Bencong : "Mau potong kaya apa?"
Gue : "Biasa aja, segi biasa"
Bencong : "Udah semester berapa? Kuliah dimana?"
Gue : "Belom lulus SMP, baru kelas dua"
Bencong : "HAH?! SEGEDE GINI SMP?!"
Gue : "anak jaman sekarang growing up faster, mas, mbak"

Ga cuma itu aja....................
Di kaya pengajian gitu,

Ibu Ibu : "Mbak Nissa udah gede yah"
Gue : "Haha iya bu, masa kecil mulu"
Ibu Ibu : "Abis kuliah mau ngelanjutin kerja dimana?"
Gue : "Belom lulus SMP bu, masih kelas dua"
Ibu Ibu : "MASYAOLOH! MASIH SMP UDAH KAYA GINI?!"
Gue : "Hehe iya bu udah biasa dibilang kuliah mah"

Masyaoloh, ga di telpon, ga langsung ketemu
Semua orang langsung aja ngomong sesuka mereka
Tanpa nanya dulu.

Tapi gue udah biasa kok ;p

Ralat LAGI

2009-01-07T03:25:00.000-08:00

Apa yang salah dengan gue hari ini?

ITU JUDUL LAGUNYA S NYA KEBANYAKAN,

Warmness On The Soul

OK?

Warmnesss on The Soul, A7X

2009-01-07T03:18:00.000-08:00

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide.
And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you. I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

Ralat

2009-01-07T03:11:00.001-08:00

Itu gue kenapa bego banget,

judulnya HANDPHONE ya,

D nya kemana sih-_-

Hanphone Kamera, apa yang salah?

2009-01-07T03:04:00.000-08:00

Sekolah gue melarang membawa hp kamera,
Katanya,

"Handphone kamera sekarang menjadi disalahgunakan, menjadi barang yang tidak seharusnya dibawa kesekolah."

Sialan.

Setelah baca edaran yang di kasih waktu ambil rapot, gue mumet.

"HP gue kamera. Gimana nih?"

Akhirnya gue punya keputusan, tetep bawa hp kamera kesekolah.

Sampe akhirnya,
Pelajaran Bindo gapernah sebener-benernya belajar.
Gatau kenapa-_-

Kita ngomongin kenapa hp kamera dilarang gitu.

Pak Arbaih : "HP kamera sudah disalahgunakan, nak"
Gue : "PAK, nihya, semua orang kan rata rata HPnya kamera, berarti harus beli baru lagi dong?! KAN GA SEMUA ORANG PEGANG DUIT SEKARANG PAK!!!"
Pak Arbaih : "(mangap)"
Gue : "LAGIAN GA SEMUA ORANG MENYALAHGUNAKAN PENGGUNAAN HP KAMERA YA TOLONG SODARA SODARA SEKALIAN"

Pak Arbaih sampe speechless.
Lagian apabanget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kan gaperlu sampe segitunya segala!

Bengong.

2009-01-07T02:49:00.001-08:00

Gue paling suka bengong.
Menurut gue bengong itu enak.

Mangap, mikirin yang enak dipikirin.
Kadang suka terbawa suasana, dan bingung gimana caranya balik ke alam nyata lagi.

Kadang ada yang kesurupan karena bengong
Tapi alhamdullillah gue belom pernah kesurupan (amin)

Tapi bengong selalu membawa kekacauan....

Tadi malem, gue kea ada masalah gitu.
Abis nangis gitudeh.

Makanya gue bengong terus, mikirin apa yang salah,
Nyesel, dan apalah banyak pokonya.

Dan gue melakukan ritual kesukaan gue itu,

Melakukan semuanya sambil, Bengong.

Jadi tadi malem,
Gue mau ngecharge HP gue.

Terus di stopkontak nya (bener ga sih namanya stop kontak-_-) adanya charge-an iPod gue.

Dengan bodohnya, gue masukin charge-an iPod gue itu ke HP gua, sambil bengong.

Gabisa kan.

Gue paksain terus,
Sampe akhirnya 3 menit kemudian gue baru sadar kalo salah colokan-_-

Sampe malu sendiri.

Kebodohan selanjutnya.............................

Nyokap ngasih duit buat bayar SPP.
Rencana, SPP mau gue taro di meja makan, biar besok engga lupa.

Gue ngebawa SPP itu sekalian ngebawa piring kotor abis makan, ke dapur.

Dengan bodohnya, piring kotor itu gue taro diatas meja makan, dan SPP gue bawa ke dapur, ke sebelah tempat cucian.

Gue gasadar sampe akhirnya gue mau ke kamar, ngelewatin meja makan..

"Kok ada piring kotor ya disitu? (masih belom sadar kalo gue sendiri yang bawa kesitu)"

Gue bawa piring kotor itu ke dapur,

Terus gue ngeliat ada SPP di situ.

Baru sadar deh gue,

"LOH JADI DARITADI GUE SALAH NARO-_-"

Terus gue malu sendiri gitudeeeh.............................(...) krik krik.

Ternyata bengong bukan kebiasaan yang bagus!

Iris, The Goo Goo Dolls

2009-01-06T03:58:00.000-08:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am